The next step
Those who said "If at first you don't succeed, try and try again." Obviously never had a HSG with a scarred cervix and retroverted uterus.
My lovely nurse, let's call her D, rang after my desperate email about how my HSG did not go well. I explained the four tries, the pain both physically and emotionally. She is honestly the nicest person ever. She suggested they might dilate my cervix and the doctor may want to have a look herself to see what the next steps are. So it's hopefully just a brief waiting game. I'll have to contact D on Tuesday to remind her as obvs she is so busy. It must be a very rewarding but depressing job. I don't know how she does it all!
I had to visit the doctors Friday as the pain was unbearable and my womb had swollen up. She wasn't sure what was causing it however suggested it could be infected. So she prescribed me some strong antibiotics and diazepam to help ease the cramps and my anxiety. I cried at her, like full breakdown saying I couldn't cope with it again. I was done mentally in that moment. I didn't want anymore bad news or negativity in my life. Even when the doctor examined me I was in so much pain I was crying. I usually have a pretty good pain threshold.
The whole experience has been surreal from start to finish. In honesty, it annoys me that doctors don't take care of the mental side of infertility. That they don't offer you counselling or support to help you mentally through this process. It just seems crazy to me! This is the toughest thing most of us face and we are told to just get on with it basically. No, from now on I will not just get on with it and look after me.
I'm a bit woo woo and have a more spiritual belief when it comes to life. I believe we are faced with challenges to overcome which we choose before we come to Earth. So I tell myself this is the way my baby chose to come into the world. This is my challenge to overcome, being a mother is the only thing I wanted solidly throughout my life. So it makes sense that this won't come easy for me in a way. I think it also helps that this isn't the first big challenge we have faced head on.
Overall, I do think this experience is bringing everyone closer together. I personally chose to let everyone at work know what was going on and have had nothing but support. It is hard at times letting so many people know it didn't go according to plan, but the support back is worth it.
Infertility can be lonely, it is definitely hard. But the outcome will be so worth it.
My lovely nurse, let's call her D, rang after my desperate email about how my HSG did not go well. I explained the four tries, the pain both physically and emotionally. She is honestly the nicest person ever. She suggested they might dilate my cervix and the doctor may want to have a look herself to see what the next steps are. So it's hopefully just a brief waiting game. I'll have to contact D on Tuesday to remind her as obvs she is so busy. It must be a very rewarding but depressing job. I don't know how she does it all!
I had to visit the doctors Friday as the pain was unbearable and my womb had swollen up. She wasn't sure what was causing it however suggested it could be infected. So she prescribed me some strong antibiotics and diazepam to help ease the cramps and my anxiety. I cried at her, like full breakdown saying I couldn't cope with it again. I was done mentally in that moment. I didn't want anymore bad news or negativity in my life. Even when the doctor examined me I was in so much pain I was crying. I usually have a pretty good pain threshold.
The whole experience has been surreal from start to finish. In honesty, it annoys me that doctors don't take care of the mental side of infertility. That they don't offer you counselling or support to help you mentally through this process. It just seems crazy to me! This is the toughest thing most of us face and we are told to just get on with it basically. No, from now on I will not just get on with it and look after me.
I'm a bit woo woo and have a more spiritual belief when it comes to life. I believe we are faced with challenges to overcome which we choose before we come to Earth. So I tell myself this is the way my baby chose to come into the world. This is my challenge to overcome, being a mother is the only thing I wanted solidly throughout my life. So it makes sense that this won't come easy for me in a way. I think it also helps that this isn't the first big challenge we have faced head on.
Overall, I do think this experience is bringing everyone closer together. I personally chose to let everyone at work know what was going on and have had nothing but support. It is hard at times letting so many people know it didn't go according to plan, but the support back is worth it.
Infertility can be lonely, it is definitely hard. But the outcome will be so worth it.
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