Side note Sunday: My feelings

I'm feeling much better today thankfully, the cramping and bleeding has stopped. I am still very tired but able to get on with life. I left the house for a shopping trip to Aldi which was nice. I also managed to briefly see my sister to say bye before she went off to London.

I actually feel a lot better now, still anxious as hell but better than before. I think sleeping all day and most of the night yesterday has been a big help. I'm trying not to think too much into what next week might hold.

I'm still trying to explain to people what happened and that can be exhausting. The fact the procedure didn't go according to plan is causing a bit of confusion. So sometimes I have to explain that I am  in pain as they did try, but it didn't go into my womb. God knows how I'm going to explain IVF to everyone!

I'm feeling more positive about the journey too. I'm hoping for the best and hoping it can get done and out the way with ASAP. It's the waiting which is the most frustrating part. The waiting, the psyching yourself up and the let down. I'm just hoping next time the pain is for a gain.

I know I can get through anything, I always come out stronger and on top. I'm not a care free 28 year old, I've experienced enough to teach me what  I can and can't cope with. On the other hand, I don't know it all and feel like I'm still a small child at times. I still have fears and concerns, even doubts. However I know I will do whatever it takes to get this baby.

Baby-You better be the best thing since sliced garlic cheese bread! I can't wait to meet you.


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