2018 in review
What can I say about this year gone by? It has been both wonderful and crazy. It seems each year when I sit back and think "Nothing will top the madness and mayhem of this." Something else surely comes to prove me wrong the following year. I guess that's part and parcel with growing up some would say.
2018 highlights would have to be the arrival of my gorgeous little niece and watching my nephews grow in their characters. Another would be watching our two little fur babies grow too. Our spaniel seems to have matured a lot more which is nice for us. He no longer wants to rip everything up and our Pom is getting better at not pissing on the new rug. There really are so many wonderful moments looking back, I can't grumble too much.
Friends have gotten engaged, married and even expecting little ones of their own. Some have bought houses or taken the next step into their wildest adventures. We too took the plunge into our wildest adventure, confronting our fertility struggles head on. Little did we know it would lead us on to this crazy path.
What is one thing you have always been sure of wanting all your life? What's your biggest dream? Did it come easy for you? I have a theory that each of us have our own challenges in life to face. If you want something the most, it isn't going to come easy. You have to prove it, work for it and hold it in your heart even when it seems like it's impossible. So it would make sense that becoming a Mum wouldn't come so easy for me.
It's hard, because I'm use to working for the thing I want and getting it. I'm use to finding my way to the thing I want the most, or having it find it's way to me. The hardest part is knowing that really now with all I've done and am doing, all I can do is wait. My dream is in doctors, nurses and scientists hands. Don't get me wrong, we're still trying naturally and hoping which is equally heart breaking every month.
Each month a cycle fails just gets us closer to the fact that other people need to get involved in our dream. We can't make a baby normally. I try to make jokes, that's how I usually cope "Why do we have to be all boujie and have our baby designer made." I laugh with friends about how I never could do things normally, how I have to be different. Really though I wish I could!
Every year I sum up life lessons I have learned from previous years, so here it is.
2018's life lessons:
2018 highlights would have to be the arrival of my gorgeous little niece and watching my nephews grow in their characters. Another would be watching our two little fur babies grow too. Our spaniel seems to have matured a lot more which is nice for us. He no longer wants to rip everything up and our Pom is getting better at not pissing on the new rug. There really are so many wonderful moments looking back, I can't grumble too much.
Friends have gotten engaged, married and even expecting little ones of their own. Some have bought houses or taken the next step into their wildest adventures. We too took the plunge into our wildest adventure, confronting our fertility struggles head on. Little did we know it would lead us on to this crazy path.
What is one thing you have always been sure of wanting all your life? What's your biggest dream? Did it come easy for you? I have a theory that each of us have our own challenges in life to face. If you want something the most, it isn't going to come easy. You have to prove it, work for it and hold it in your heart even when it seems like it's impossible. So it would make sense that becoming a Mum wouldn't come so easy for me.
It's hard, because I'm use to working for the thing I want and getting it. I'm use to finding my way to the thing I want the most, or having it find it's way to me. The hardest part is knowing that really now with all I've done and am doing, all I can do is wait. My dream is in doctors, nurses and scientists hands. Don't get me wrong, we're still trying naturally and hoping which is equally heart breaking every month.
Each month a cycle fails just gets us closer to the fact that other people need to get involved in our dream. We can't make a baby normally. I try to make jokes, that's how I usually cope "Why do we have to be all boujie and have our baby designer made." I laugh with friends about how I never could do things normally, how I have to be different. Really though I wish I could!
Every year I sum up life lessons I have learned from previous years, so here it is.
2018's life lessons:
- Say no when you need to.
- Ru Paul's drag race is always a good idea.
- Be kind to yourself and to others.
- It's OK to no longer be in touch with people who do not add to your life or understand you.
- You choose your life and how you want it to be, no one else can do this but you.
- Crying isn't a sign of weakness.
- Telling others how you really feel gives you the power to help others who may feel the same way.
- Work is just that-work.
- You sometimes have to be the teacher.
- Being patient is the hardest thing on Earth.
- Great things come to those who have worked and waited long enough.
- Eating cheese and chocolate in the same day when you know you're limited lactose is OK if you can cope with the horrific stomach churning and potential vomming although you're nearly 29 and should know better.
Love,
Blue moon girl x
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